Who is this girl?

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Who's ready for school? I bet you are, but the thing is, I'm not, and I have never been. I know it's just the first week of this semester, yet nothing hasn't started, but I feel so overwhelmed right now. Sounds like a pretty bad start, isn't it? I didn't want to write my very first blog sad, boring, or meaningless, but I want you to get to know just a  little bit of what's going on in my life. It's like an entry blog to my little world, and you are all welcome here! 

I know it has been a challenging time for everyone since a pandemic came out. COVID-19.
Ohh.., it feels like it will never go away from us. However, coming back to campus, seeing many students around, and can't find any good parking, which is not good actually, are amazing during this difficult time. I missed this so much even though I don't know much about our school and its students. 

Just in case, if you don't remember me, I'm Arvin, a college student like you, but an international one. Let me tell you why I'm here and what I'm looking for. Well.., It was all started with my dream to study abroad and experience cultural differences. I thought it would never happen but still wanted to feel how it's like. Coming here was tough as a foreigner; tuition, living expenses were way too much more than what I had expected, what's more, language differences. I had only two years of English knowledge that wasn't good enough because I constantly felt disappointed in how I talk and what I write. This thing still bothers me, I'm not confident, and I sometimes don't understand what others say.  IT WAS ABSOLUTELY AWESOME when I first came here, but when school began, I started feeling different. Thoughts and feelings of doubting myself made me stressed out. Something inside of me kept asking, "What if I don't study well after spending so much money on it?", "What if I let my family down since they all want me to be successful?" and I didn't want this to happen. You got that, right? So, that's the reason why I have never been ready for school. Especially being in a new environment, having no one I know, school seems to be pretty terrifying to me. 

What helped me to get out of these questions was working on my mental health. I believe everyone needs to take care of their mental health. It seems obvious, but we always forget or simply ignore it. So, I have cleared my thoughts and tried to look at things differently by doing exercises and listening to podcasts. 
The most important thing was to keep reminding to myself of my goal, passion, and dream of why I'm here. As I mentioned in the class, I'm doing my undergraduate degree in Biology and looking forward to studying medicine. Seems as if way too far, but I hope I'm getting one step closer at a time. I feel more confident than before although there are still some concerns. What I'm trying to say in the end is I want you to believe in yourself, find out your passion, and work for it. We have all been through challenging times and feeling lost sometimes, but I'm just saying it's good thing; therefore, we could learn from that. This semester is going to be great and I hope we'll learn a lot more things in the class! 




Comments

  1. UnknownAugust 30, 2021 at 8:10 AM

    Welcome here and hopefully things get a little less stressful as the weeks go on. Everyone is here to help and there are a lot of resources for you.

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  2. AnonymousAugust 30, 2021 at 8:14 AM

    Arvin your blog is very interesting and relatable. The self-doubt of being able to be successful stood out to me a lot. For English to be your second language, you are one of the most well-spoken foreigners I have ever encountered. On the first day you projected your voice nicely and didn't give any signs of not understanding the language at all. My girlfriend's dad is from Nigeria and has lived in the U.S. for decades and still has trouble speaking English fluently. I also appreciate the fact that you mentioned the wellness of your mental health. Mental health is one of the most important factors in my life. Due to my mental health not being where I needed it to be, it actually was the main cause of my initial failed attempt to go to college. I have experienced the feeling of letting my family down and now have regained the confidence after a year off to resume school where I left off.

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    1. Arvin Altankhundaga ENG 105August 31, 2021 at 6:25 PM

      Thank you so much, Rese! I feel much better now about the language after reading your comment. I'm so glad that you regained your confidence. And I'm sure you will do everything perfectly in the future. Good luck!

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  3. MadelynSeptember 1, 2021 at 8:10 AM

    You're blog is very relatable. I too was nervous about starting school. Knowing I wasn't the only one who was nervous makes everything feel a little better. I think you're doing great here. You're writing is better than my writing and I've been speaking English my whole life. So props to you for doing so well with that, I was never good at learning other languages. The topic on mental health is amazing, I think everyone should be focusing on their mental health like you are. I think lots of people could handle things so much better if they found something that calmed them down and stuck with it. I like your blog, it is very modern and unique. Great blog!

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    1. Arvin Altankhundaga ENG 105September 3, 2021 at 6:21 AM

      Thanks, Madelyn. It means lot to me. Hopefully, our nervousness, and fear will go away and we will start enjoying school work soon. And I think, our professor will definitely help us for making this happen as well as we are to each other. Good luck, girl!

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